Hi everyone 🙂 My heart is literally pounding as I am writing this. I am on the verge of crying and breaking out into joyful dance at the same time. I am grieving and celebrating. My heart is balancing two very conflicting feelings, but I am at total peace. Let me explain.
With war breaking out in Ukraine, questions have been floating around. Will we still go to Romania? Is it safe? Will we go home? Yesterday, I was given a choice along with the rest of my squad.
Romania or Ecuador.
We were only given twenty-four hours to choose. Although that seems like a very short time to make such a huge decision, the Lord has been preparing me for this for quite some time. He is honestly so good. I actually can’t help but just cry and worship Him when I think about what He has done in me. I can look back over the entirety of my life and see how the Lord has prepared me for this moment.
Things the Lord has taught me over the last two weeks:
- The gift in having a choice.
- He is my defender.
- He is proud of me.
- I don’t have to fight for myself.
- He is good.
Big moments in the last two weeks:
- I grieved separating from my friends here.
- I saw Jesus in a vision for the first time in THREE months!
- Jesus and I walked on water.
- God crowned me with grace.
- I finally decided to trust in His protection.
As we were given this choice of Romania or Ecuador, my mind raced, but I couldn’t help but smile knowing that the Lord had prepared me for this and would give me peace wherever I decided to go. I have prayed, worshipped, laid everything at His feet, and rested in His presence. have talked with my family, and Cael.
I have decided to go Romania.
Before you freak out, I just want to encourage you to pray too. I would also love to explain that I have complete peace going to Romania. I know that Ukraine is only 450 miles away. I know there is uncertainty. I know this doesn’t seem safe. BUT what I do know is my hand is in His, and I am willing to run anywhere with Him. I have fears, but I refuse to let them paralyze me. I hope you do not allow fear to have control of you either. Sometimes following the Lord just doesn’t make sense to others, and that is okay with me. I am willing to die. I do not believe that is going to happen soon, but that is something I have processed. I know that sounds crazy, and instead of it stirring more fear in you, let it give you peace. I will not die prematurely or outside of the Lord’s will. I believe He is protecting me, but if the worst thing happens to me, He is still good. I am not seeking danger, and I will not put myself in harms way intentionally; however, my yes is on the table, and it would be an honor to die for Christ. This wasn’t a light-hearted decision, but it is the right one.
I can feel something in me rising up. Boldness and passion is coming to life. I feel the weight of His protection surrounding me. I feel this ebb and flow of weakness and strength, of heartbreak and rejoicing. Because everyone was free to make their own choice, the squad is splitting up. Four people on my team are going to Romania, and two are going to Ecuador. The rest of the teams are split fairly similar. Although this is hard, the Lord has also been preparing our hearts for this. I have so much peace in everyone’s decision.
Verses that come to mind:
Isaiah 61 – “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me, Because the Lord has anointed Me to preach good news to the poor; He has sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives…”
Proverbs 31:25 – “She is clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future.”
Esther 4:14 – made for such a time as this
Matthew 28:16 – the great commission
John 14 – Peace
Isaiah 49 – “…And He has made My mouth like a sharp sword: in the shadow of His hand He has hidden Me, and made me a polished arrow and concealed me in His quizzer…”
Please pray for continued peace, strength, and PVT!! My parents will be here in a week!!! EEK. I believe the Lord is going to move powerfully.
I love you all. Victory is in Jesus.
Talk to you soon!
– Abigail Grace
Abigail I agree you ARE anointed to preach, heal and set captives free! You ARE clothed in strength, dignity and crowned with Grace ?? beauty , love and mercy. You ARE a polished arrow hidden in the Lords quiver(tears!!!) Jesus is so worthy to receive the reward of His suffering. The nations are Jesus inheritance. The hungry and thirsty are waiting for the Living water of Jesus. I am standing with you brave one!!!!!! Lord help me to be a worthy partner standing in prayer with your beautiful warrior, Abigail Grace! ??????
I didn’t mean the question marks!! Those were all happy, love, or fire Imoges! And one with big tears!
I’m proud of you girl. You are anointed for what God has called you to. You are always faithful to say yes to God, some people don’t understand what it’s like to live like that. Not everyone’s calling requires the level of faith as your’s does. It’s hard for them to grasp decisions like this. It’s ok though, they mean the best. Don’t let them get you down, keep you head up and march towards the race you are called to run. I know what your carry and the anointing you walk in, you got this. You are going to finish this race strong. Christie, myself and your church family are covering you in prayer. We love you!!!
The way that you word things and reveal the Father’s heart amazes me. I am so proud of you. I cannot wait to hear about how the He refines you in these next two months. Final debrief is going to be such a sweet reunion.
Walk on water, sweet friend.
I am stund , I’m worried about your safety and future health. I know you have prayed and thought on this but i also believe god gives us fear to protect us from danger and keep us safe. I have a family member who was in the military on rescue missions, he and his whole platoon were sent on recovery missions and all made it home but none of the one hundred plus have children and all have the same medical conditions. I know this won’t change your mind but i want you to think about all possibilities and your future of being able to ministry in the future and the gift of your insight to help others when you get home. As you have laid your heart out i also have sent you my heart felt message. We love you and pray for your saftey! And our strength
abigail!! this is beautiful and i have tears in my eyes reading this! i am UNBELIEVABLY proud of you and the entire squad. praying every day you you guys, what the Lord will do through and in you will be abundant. what an honor it is to lay your yes into the hands of the Father and watch what he will do with it. wowowow what a God!!!! you are a soilder of Christ!!!!
“and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,”
??Ephesians? ?3:19-20? ?
“You then, my child, be strengthened by the grace that is in Christ Jesus, and what you have heard from me in the presence of many witnesses entrust to faithful men, who will be able to teach others also. Share in suffering as a good soldier of Christ Jesus. No soldier gets entangled in civilian pursuits, since his aim is to please the one who enlisted him.”
??2 Timothy? ?2:1-4? ?ESV??
Praying for your safety as you continue to do Gods work! God Bless you young lady!
Abby you are so brave. The lion within you is being released… and the world needs your roar. ?? Go change the world!!!!